Confessions of a Struggling Actor

Odd updates from my odd life

2007/2/26

Getting my arse in gear

@ 09:47 AM (33 months, 8 days ago)

I can't hack this pace...

Wednesday saw us win handsomely at 5 a side to be one point behind the leaders with a game in hand (we play them tonight) and we celebrated with a session down the pub while watching the Liverpool game.  I wasn't too mashed, but my aching legs and general malaise on Thursday was surely down to the excess booze in my system.  Thursday night I did nothing, which in retropect was stupid as I still haven't sorted out my computer and printer yet and my room is a tip.

Friday night was a leaving do for one of our lawyers.  I was karaoke MC and didn't drink too much while still on site and realised quite how pissed the rest of my colleagues were only once we'd met at the pub.  One was my playing partner at pool and kept threatening anyone that said anything to the contrary - including me as his doubles partner.  Another asked me to do a shot and it took him an age to understand that I'd said yes (though the confusion may have come when I gave him money to also get me a Guinness) and not much later I saw him slumped against the wall barely able to speak.  Girls were shreiking, boys were talking absolute nonsense, so I took my leave.  On returning home, I played Denis at backgammon while under the influence and still made it to bed by midnight.

Saturday was possibly the culmination of the hedonistic year I've had so far.  I didn't get up til 12 (another chance to sort some of my life out missed) and sat in my dressing gown watching Football Focus and the Scotland rugby match (ouch) before heading out (after showering and dressing, natch) to a friend's engagement celebration in South London around 6.30.  It was only a house party and so it was fairly low key, though booze was flowing and I had some very good chilli.  I had Harry's birthday party to go to afterwards and was already taking Laura McT along when i received a message from my footy mate John saying that he'd been abandoned by his mates after the game and was i up to anything.  Knowing Harry wouldn't mind, I invited him too and we met at Finsbury Park and headed up.  The rest of the evening was a bit of a blur, owing to me ingesting a naughty thing, but the feeling was one of fun and laughs.  There were no awkward moments (save for the guy who looked like he belonged in a madchester band and who blanked me when i went over to intriduce myself - prick) though I didn't kiss any girls.  I fought off temptation to just go for one that liked me (that i wasn't that keen on) and ended up with John and laura crashed out on my sofas.

Me and John had football on Sunday and miraculously we both made it.  We even won 4-1 with me scoring 2 and John having a hand in all 4.  I don't think my pre-match preparation of the previous night helped that much though.  After that it was a hobble to the nearest pub (that wasn't rammed) to watch the football.  Pints were downed (as I wasn't feeling the best) but still got home before 8pm.  I then realised that the naughty herbs I'd bought the night before were left at the party, leaving me feeling worse by the minute.  A lesson to be learned, perhaps a sign?...

With that in mind, I've filled my diary with tasks to get done over the next three weeks or so.  This mainly consists of learning my lines for MacB, getting my room/files/computer sorted out, introducing the fitness programme I need to follow for Banquo and getting plenty of early nights and only drinking at weekends.  I've got some expensive looking Fridays and Saturdays coming up (poker this weekend, Aberdeen the next) so need to keep an eye on the pennies too.  My tickets and accomodation to Benicassim are now booked too, so I need to be good before that and enjoy a proper blow-out while there.

2007/2/21

Post India Shock Syndrome Ends Dangerously

@ 09:56 AM (33 months, 13 days ago)

or as the acronym would be - PISSED...

After my trip the weekend was a bit of a blur.  I spent the bulk of Saturday drifting in and our of sleep while watching TV and DVDs with very little interest in moving at all.  I finished the little amount of herb that i had left in an effort to save as much energy as possible for Sunday's football.  I got a text saying it was cancelled and two inviting me out that night - one in town and one local.  Ithought about it (as much as I could in my clouded brain) and decided that the sensible thing to do would be to have a couple of drinks local and get back early.

As it was, I ended up getting drunk on one pint and making the beast with two backs and didn't get to sleep til 6am.  That helped my jet lag, naturally...

Sunday, I didn't rise til two (no innuendo jokes there, thank you...) and I don't remember doing very much at all, apart from worry that the girl I'd been with the night before might be looking for something more than drunken, jet-lagged fun.  I did get an early night as I wasn't too bad the next morning for work.

The rest of the week was relatively uneventful until the weekend, with only a few drinks on Tuesday, finding out that the girl from the previous weekend was not after anything substantial (innuendo denial again...) and booking my flight to see Flying Pig.  However, Friday ended up being altogether too large...

I'd went for a couple of drinks after work with colleagues as per every Friday, then went to meet Caroline, Mono, Ads and a few others who I've met through Drew and Bee and who have been staunch supporters of my performing career.  I decided to be sensible and drink red wine as I don't tend to drink it that quickly.  Sue was there and there was lots of good chat and nibbles (I had no dinner and only ended up having some nachos) though I could feel my legs getting drunk before the rest of me.  It was a warning I should have heeded.  MArk called just as we were being told to finish up and he joined a few of us for 'one more drink' which turned into 4 more cocktails.  I blame Mark...  Night bus home after going to Subway rather than a kebab.  Still tasted rank like...

I woke up Saturday with the intention of doing the following things:

Buy computer / watch the Dons at the Rob Roy / meet MacB director and producer / dinner with grant and Nicola / meet Dave (who had given me the wrong date)

Due to yet another worst-hangover-for-ten-years, I managed the following:

sleep til 12.30  /meet MacB director and producer / drink with grant and Nicola on an empty stomach / be sick in my mouth on the way to meet dave and have to go home and convalesce...

The meeting with Sam (dir) and his wife Heather (prod/lady mac) was really good - I obviously didn't say much as i was feeling less than perfect - as the ambition, scale, detail, plan for rehearsals, seriousness was all good.  top that end I have to do some research and heather (who used to train people for the MoD) is going to give me a programme to bulk up, hope fully making me look somewhere near Russell Crowe in Gladiator.  I'm very excited and ready to get fucking serious about this part - i'm even borrowing a braodsword to get the feel of what it's like to hold and live with it.

Sunday, i played footy (lost 2-0 to the top team in our div, but gave them a right good game - I would have had at least two if it wasn't for their excellent keeper) and little else.  Monday was back in work (where I seem to be out of the woods a little) and then bought a MacBook and a printer and carried it home (feeling the burn for the previous day's exertions) and last night I met Sarah, Luke and my old flatmate Kerri for drinks and dinner.  I've got 5aside tonight (and some drinks after), leaving drinks on friday, two parties on saturday and football on Sunday and then try to only drink one night a week while in London - Flying Pig doesn't count.

My body feels fucked now - OK I had the smoking last year, but the drink makes me feel worse and is way more expensive.  I'm going to be on this fitness programme anyway and have to concentrate on Banquo with rehearsals due to start soon.  if I'm good now, my holiday in July will feel even better.  Also, I have my computer to sort out now, so have other things to occupy my mind...or at least what's left of it.

India trip

@ 08:28 AM (33 months, 13 days ago)

Wednesday 5am - I struggled out of bed, had a shower and some apple juice and was having a smoke when the taxi arrived to set me on my way to India at 5.45.

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2007/2/15

Pre-India

@ 10:43 AM (33 months, 19 days ago)

After the stress of january, things calmed down a little in the build up to my big trip.

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