Confessions of a Struggling Actor

Barbados tomorrow!!  Getting a little excited now.  I know that I'll be busy working most of the time I'm there, but a chance to get out of London doesn't come around too often.   At lunchtime, I'll get some SPF 30 lotion to cover my peeley-walley skin.

After a quiet Monday night of 5 a side (lost 4-1), washing underwear and making sure I had all I needed for my trip.  I heard back from the Shakespeare guys and have an audition tonight.  Nervous, but confident.  Tuesday evening I rehearsed for the film shoot next week (Bailey also got the part - they wanted us as a team, which is cool) and last night went for dinner and a show with a lovely young lady that still needs convincing of our suitability as a couple.  I gave cogent arguments (many of which were accepted) and flirted like hell.  We both fancy each other and I think we'd be great together.  I'll win her over yet, so long as I get the opportunity to see her on a more regular basis.

Work is really getting to me.  Perhaps it's the frustration that I'm still here after 4 and a half years.  Perhaps it's because I don't like the way the company's moving, the new roles we're supposed to take, and the lack of concern about our bread and butter record breakers.  I've been talked to like a child more and more recently and I need a way out.  I know that I could easy get a job in a call centre, but I'm not going to jump ship on good money for a change in something that isn't even my career.  On reflection, it could be because I've been doing so much acting that I'm resenting having to continue to have to do this job.  Christ, I'm not getting precious in my old age am I?  It's a shame as there's still good people (with good minds) here, but they seem to get bogged down with ever changing decisions regarding the structure of the company, with morale hit by the redundancies.  Sod it, I've got to give less of a shit.

So this afternoon will be taken up by printing certificates, record guidelines, emails and by performing Shakespeare.  Early night needed tonight as I have top check in at Gatwick at 7am!!  Ouch!  But the thought of Barbados, plus plenty of time out of the office next week while filming the short is putting a smile on my face.